生活好像回到了最原始的原点...这就是我要的吗?我.....
感觉回到三个多月前那时候了...自己一个人处理自己的事,没有人会过问,没有人会去理会...第一次自己一个人去看戏,自己一个人去吃午餐,自己一个人逛街,自己一个人买礼物,自己一个人打篮球,自己一个人逛夜市,自己一个人买书,自己一个人做复习,自己一个人哭泣,自己一个人做决定,没有问别人的意见...好多好多的自己一个人...以前我都常对朋友说,一个人去看戏逛街是人生的最高境界...因为我很佩服自己一个人做那么多事都不会感到寂寞和孤单的人..现在我感觉的到那种心情和感受了...我...并没有想像中的喜欢自己一个人的感觉...也许是已经习惯了去那里,做些什么都会有人知道或者都有交代噢...现在...没有了...也不会有人要知道了...我..会慢慢习惯的...我相信我一定能够适应...说到就要做到...这是我最近比较重视的...
没有你...我真的不好过...表面好像掩饰得很好...可是并没有人知道我内心在想些什么...即使是很了解我的你也不一定知道...就像我也不知道你在想些什么一样...我会控制自己不去想太多...情绪控制得比以前好了...可是每当想到你的时候,心就会很痛, 眼泪很自然的自己就会掉下来了...心里的感受又会有谁知道呢?多少的悲伤,多少的后悔,多少的遗憾...能够衡量吗?如果能够都把这些换成快乐那就好了...它们已经在我内心地底里发了芽,是永远都存在的...很多时候都很想开口跟你说话,可是都一直不敢...要开口但是却收回了...很尴尬,很无奈...不敢看你的眼睛...每看你的眼睛一次,心就会揪一次...T.T
<背影>和<北极星的眼泪>是我目前最喜欢的两首歌...对我来说,它们的意义很大...<背影>是你给我印象最深刻的歌...最喜欢去年你常坐在我后面唱的那时候...我也记得第一首要你唱给我听的歌也是这首...很好听,真的很好听...不知道还有机会听吗?伤心的是,当你要听的时候我并不知道...<北极星的眼泪>是对我感触蛮深的歌...诉说对爱情的无奈和失望吧...每次听这首歌的时候,自己就会不知不觉中进入那首歌里面了...感觉很奇怪...奇怪得来又很平静...好像不断在提醒自己什么似的...
今天,终于考完试了...心情还蛮轻松的...这次的考试又没了...答应过你的好像又办不到了...但是我还有预考,还有大考啊...这次是真的会努力了...时间已经不多了..心里的负担已经够多了...不想再多一个遗憾...我承受不起了...只要有努力就一定会有成果的...是吗?回到最原始的问题...读中六为的是什么?心里都很清楚了...今天并没有买我要的书...<人性的弱点>...我已经知道有什么方法可以找到了...我一定要买到...今天买不到这本书却买了另一本书<为快乐而奋斗>...我站在书摊那看了很久...这本书真的很好所以就买哦...还蛮便宜的,但是也是需要我四天的零用钱了...我也买了donuts噢..超好吃的...明天会带给朋友吃噢...也是第一次买那么多...因为有便宜嘛...Erm...明天庆祝教师节噢...预祝所有的老师,教师节快乐...^^
现在是凌晨一点二十分了...我还没回家呢...现在回噢...各位,晚安...^^
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Spe@KinG***
Finally...it was over...
i was very stress this few days..bcoz 2day was my muet speaking test and mid year exam is coming soon..i reached SMK Victoria at around 730am..den went to register..i was happy that i was same group wif yue fen and evenlyn..we just waited at the waiting room for one and a half hour..finally,our gruop has been called by the examinor..we all felt very nervous and scare..we walked slowly to enter da examination hall..i think this is my 1st time walking so slow in my life..hehe..both of the examinors are gud enuf..they interacted wif us before we started our test,seem like wanna calm us down..hehe..THANKS GOD..i got the easiest point and i can fulfilled my task on time..hehe..really happy happy..
after tat, we went to school to continue our school lesson..but dunno y..after recess, i was not so happy and felt very tired..yue fen asked me y i was so quiet..actually im aso dunno WHY..
very tired oh..wanna go rest for a while..hehe..
i was very stress this few days..bcoz 2day was my muet speaking test and mid year exam is coming soon..i reached SMK Victoria at around 730am..den went to register..i was happy that i was same group wif yue fen and evenlyn..we just waited at the waiting room for one and a half hour..finally,our gruop has been called by the examinor..we all felt very nervous and scare..we walked slowly to enter da examination hall..i think this is my 1st time walking so slow in my life..hehe..both of the examinors are gud enuf..they interacted wif us before we started our test,seem like wanna calm us down..hehe..THANKS GOD..i got the easiest point and i can fulfilled my task on time..hehe..really happy happy..
after tat, we went to school to continue our school lesson..but dunno y..after recess, i was not so happy and felt very tired..yue fen asked me y i was so quiet..actually im aso dunno WHY..
very tired oh..wanna go rest for a while..hehe..
Saturday, May 9, 2009
embarrassing...
2day is wesak's day..i followed vegetarian diet..i hav received an important call after finishing my lunch..and 1st time so rush to his house without any preparation..really unbelievable..hehe..i cant reached his house on time but 40 minutes for me to back home from temple, go out again and finally reached his house was better than last time rite?hehe..
we went to klcc..we went there to settle my maxis number's stuff..i wanna upgrade my maxis number to 3G..unfortunately,i left my identity card in the card..at first, i tot that i was ard registered my number few years ago so might not nid my identity card anymore..when there was my turn, the 'girl' requested for my IC and i just said i left it in my car..but wad she said i will remember forever..she said 'if u don hav ur IC then how am i going to identity u?'..i felt very embarrassing..OMG!haizz..all is my fault..i shudn't leave my IC inside the car..sob sob..
finally, i went back to the car there took my IC and Q again then only get the thing i wan..haizz..becoz of tis..i lost my oppotunity to watch movie wif him liao..haizz..erm..paise paise err..wan him accompanied me go here and there..and 'waste' time..next time..im sure will bring along all tis important stuffs all the time liao..hehe..
we went to klcc..we went there to settle my maxis number's stuff..i wanna upgrade my maxis number to 3G..unfortunately,i left my identity card in the card..at first, i tot that i was ard registered my number few years ago so might not nid my identity card anymore..when there was my turn, the 'girl' requested for my IC and i just said i left it in my car..but wad she said i will remember forever..she said 'if u don hav ur IC then how am i going to identity u?'..i felt very embarrassing..OMG!haizz..all is my fault..i shudn't leave my IC inside the car..sob sob..
finally, i went back to the car there took my IC and Q again then only get the thing i wan..haizz..becoz of tis..i lost my oppotunity to watch movie wif him liao..haizz..erm..paise paise err..wan him accompanied me go here and there..and 'waste' time..next time..im sure will bring along all tis important stuffs all the time liao..hehe..
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Obedience...
Are u an obedient person?Is it very hard to be an obedient person?It's not..But why so many times u are trying to advise me to be an obedient person,im so stubborn to ignore and disobey wad u say..im so sorry..i can do it..i can be an obedient person..i noe i can..i trust myself..
2day i followed vegetarian diet..i noe u intend to eat shakey pizza but i cant eat so finally we went to eat donuts..thank you..and..1st time made u played basketball unhappily..im so regret..next time i wont let u feel unhappy liao..next time change place to play oo..tat place not gud..hehe..
now is the time to do my minute reports oo..
2day i followed vegetarian diet..i noe u intend to eat shakey pizza but i cant eat so finally we went to eat donuts..thank you..and..1st time made u played basketball unhappily..im so regret..next time i wont let u feel unhappy liao..next time change place to play oo..tat place not gud..hehe..
now is the time to do my minute reports oo..
Friday, May 1, 2009
1st time
hey everyone..^^So hepy that i hav created a new blog here..hehe..1st time to post oo...
bout yesterday~1st time took out so much money to buy a very significant stuff..tat way i took tat money out is funny enuf..hehe..i think i wont forget it in my whole life..i think for more than a month oni decided to buy it..really feel sorry to u tat the month oni say wanna buy it without taking any action..it's worth enuf to buy tis stuff..i never feel regret and hepy can buy it..hehe..thanks to u for helping me a lot so that i can buy tis stuff..hepy hepy..^^muz cherish it oo~
2day~tis morning i had promised myself for not saying a word again..althought it is happen 2 me avday..i muz control it and not let it to control me..tis is wad can i say..woke up early in the morning 2 do my tuition homework b4 going to tuition..930am until 200pm..1st time tuition so many hours..after tis wanna go for a movie but quite disappointed bcoz tat movie we wanna watch not nice so we jz had our lunch oni..2day..i realized tat avtime wad i wan to do muz do but alwiz ignore the important thing around me..never think about other's feeling..jz do wad i wan or i nid..im so sorry..sob sob..erm..quite excited when we decided to play basketball in the evening but when we reached there no place for us to play..haizz..tat time really feel lik wanna talk wif the guys who r playing and let me play..disappointed..but suan ba..sure hav chance de..hehe..^^
bout yesterday~1st time took out so much money to buy a very significant stuff..tat way i took tat money out is funny enuf..hehe..i think i wont forget it in my whole life..i think for more than a month oni decided to buy it..really feel sorry to u tat the month oni say wanna buy it without taking any action..it's worth enuf to buy tis stuff..i never feel regret and hepy can buy it..hehe..thanks to u for helping me a lot so that i can buy tis stuff..hepy hepy..^^muz cherish it oo~
2day~tis morning i had promised myself for not saying a word again..althought it is happen 2 me avday..i muz control it and not let it to control me..tis is wad can i say..woke up early in the morning 2 do my tuition homework b4 going to tuition..930am until 200pm..1st time tuition so many hours..after tis wanna go for a movie but quite disappointed bcoz tat movie we wanna watch not nice so we jz had our lunch oni..2day..i realized tat avtime wad i wan to do muz do but alwiz ignore the important thing around me..never think about other's feeling..jz do wad i wan or i nid..im so sorry..sob sob..erm..quite excited when we decided to play basketball in the evening but when we reached there no place for us to play..haizz..tat time really feel lik wanna talk wif the guys who r playing and let me play..disappointed..but suan ba..sure hav chance de..hehe..^^
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